Wonder if he's feeling guilty of what happen last night... Call mi this afternoon but i didn't manage to pick up his call.. Give him a call back and check if it's him who call.. Private number mah. Surprisingly, he told mi it's indeed him who called. He hardly call mi nowadays though, it's always mi who call.. Sigh~
Thought he would not drop by today AND surprisingly he did... Aarrghh.. Guess he must be feeling guilty. Was kinda nice to mi, the way he talk.. didn't vent any anger on mi though he told mi lots happen tis morning.. Am glad, BUT i ask myself why can't he be nice to mi every other day? Is it tat when he realise that i am upset, then he took a softer approach towards mi?
Well, i reli got no idea wat's in his mind.. BUT he seem able to read mi inside out just like a book. Gosh~ We went out for lunch, was talking happily.. JUST how i wish everyday can be such. Guess they were right, the closer u are with someone, he/she is very likely to take u for granted. And mi.. just willing accepted this.
Well, he always able to make mi happy and this happiness i felt always make mi forget how sad he cause mi to be.. SIgh~ In a dilemna.. but guess i'm still very much hooked with him...
Today was a blissful day and i felt happy.. after so long.. wish tings will remain this way..
Friday, October 5, 2007
Thursday, October 4, 2007
iT JuSt HuRtS~
First post in this newly created blog of mine... Guess it's time to pen down my thoughts again.
Today, time at work seem to pass so fast, didn't even realise that i did not have my meals. Started preparing for the range discount tingy and packing of goodie bags. All seem to fall in place nicely.
Had a good time at the range, manage to hit some balls and the consistency was there:) The evening seem so nice and we had supper after workout at the range. Had some crappy conversation and was laughing it off. But alas, things took a change... I was aly feeling quite blue these few days. I need some comfort but guess i didn't reli manage to have it. We seem to be drifting. Well, guess in the first place, we should not have hook up. Guess i was being naive to reli believe that things between u and ur wife is on the rocks but the truth hurts. I hated to land myself in this SHIT!!! And it seem that i can't get myself out... U tends to be secretive when ur wife called u and i hate that. I just hate myself so much now. I done so much for u and yet i feel so miserable. I kept asking myself is it time to let go?
U kept asking mi why i had sleepless nights.. Do u know it's because of u that i can't sleep? U can always treat mi hot and cold as and when u let. Always take mi 4 granted. I AM FEEING REAL SAD DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART. I RELI DUNO WAT SHOULD I DO?
Today, time at work seem to pass so fast, didn't even realise that i did not have my meals. Started preparing for the range discount tingy and packing of goodie bags. All seem to fall in place nicely.
Had a good time at the range, manage to hit some balls and the consistency was there:) The evening seem so nice and we had supper after workout at the range. Had some crappy conversation and was laughing it off. But alas, things took a change... I was aly feeling quite blue these few days. I need some comfort but guess i didn't reli manage to have it. We seem to be drifting. Well, guess in the first place, we should not have hook up. Guess i was being naive to reli believe that things between u and ur wife is on the rocks but the truth hurts. I hated to land myself in this SHIT!!! And it seem that i can't get myself out... U tends to be secretive when ur wife called u and i hate that. I just hate myself so much now. I done so much for u and yet i feel so miserable. I kept asking myself is it time to let go?
U kept asking mi why i had sleepless nights.. Do u know it's because of u that i can't sleep? U can always treat mi hot and cold as and when u let. Always take mi 4 granted. I AM FEEING REAL SAD DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART. I RELI DUNO WAT SHOULD I DO?
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